2009年12月28日 星期一

byebye,2009.

when waiting for my dinner to be done at a vegetarian restaurant,
a book on the shelf caught my eyes- "how to set your mind free".
i was quite interested in the word "free",
so i opened it and couldn't stop reading it.
the book looks simple to follow, while contains wisdom to ponder.
the structure is clear, principle by principle.


principle one, words with impeccability.

say what you mean on the basis of love and truth.
don't speak ill of others. don't gossip. don't spread words of poison.
well, that's easy. i can do it.
but do i speak frankly?
am i hiding something from someone
because of being afraid of getting hurt or hurting others?
i don't know where to draw the line.

here comes a self reminder.
if you do love someone, respect them.
sometimes self would disguise as love,
but that's not true at all, it's just one-way love.
and one day i won't be afraid of getting hurt anymore,
so long as you aren't lying to me, and i happen to like you.


principle two, never identify yourself with anyone or anything easily.

not that easy, i think.
sometimes even against traditions or conventions.
but i like the tone.
you are what you choose,
and choose what you are comfortable with.


principle three, no more assumptions about others.

ohoh, my achilles' heel.
the more you expect, the more disappointed you will be.
fortunately we can't read others' mind and neither can they,
which makes our lives more interesting than ever.
try to be tender but firm.
and believe in yourself.
no one or nothing can harm you unless you allow it.


principle four, ......

well, i had a bad memory,so i forgot. haha.


dedicated to all my good friends,
especially those who are undergoing some massive changes.
2009 probably is a tough year for us,
but not everything seems as it looks.

byebye, 2009.
thank you for teaching me a lesson.














2009年12月23日 星期三

time after time

又到了冬天。
身體的某部份安靜地被放著。
在等待,在思考,在猶豫。
重複一遍又一遍地告訴自己:
開心的上課,專心的做事,在每一個快樂的當下。
Yes, i do.

但有時候不得不承認,好重。
失落的感覺好重,疲累的感覺好重,不准難過的感覺好重。

才遲鈍的發現,淚水在遊走。


然後我想起cheer的
我還是要愛你,就算全世界與我為敵。
繼續勇敢吧。